Nothing was as it appeared. Appearances were not to be trusted. In fact nothing was to be trusted. Things exist in layers.

Though she was not involved with anyone else, she was drifting away from him. He believed she was thinking about leaving. Of course hewas drivin her away. She was hyper-emotional. She was a raw nerve. She was suicidal all the time. Without really thinking about acting on it.

I wanted to be withdrawn, reserved, cold, wholly absorbed in her own obsession, perfectly pure. shutting everything out.